🌹 Let them call it ruin …….You will call it rebirth 🌹
Where Darkness Became Illumination
Healing isn’t about performance for the sake of others. It is about trying to feel whole, not perfect.
This is for the ones trying to hold it together, but bleeding silently inside.
For the cycle breakers.
For the silent ones.
For the overthinkers.
For the people pleasers.
For the ones that fear questioning beyond how the ‘family picture’ should look like.
For the ones that feel it in their heart that there is more out there than the beliefs you were born into.
I am not here because I am healed. I am here because I am still healing. I didn’t feel ready but I have been guided that this too will be part of my healing, for me and hopefully for others as well.
Raw. Imperfect. Still Learning.
Awakened yet still Awakening
Soon I will figure out this website and maybe blogs! For now, I am adding sections…
Guilt…. Oh boy… Guilt……. Is that the biggest illusion of them all?
Guilt by beliefs, guilt by traditions, guilt by family, guilt by colleagues, guilt by friends…the list goes on of course.
Am I being too selfish? Am I being too cold? Too distant? Too lazy? Too outspoken? Too much?
I will be lying if I said I live guilt free now, but the guilt that was consuming before my awakened was unbearable. The thing about guilt is that it leads to many unhealthy habits, attachments, and emotions. The chatter inside my head was almost indescribable. I still remember when I first started meditating. I saw myself walk through the middle of an empty dark room to flip a switch and suddenly what felt like an auditorium filled with different conversations JUST stopped…. Eerie silence…
Sometimes at the park I still stop to check my mind and be aware that the chatter is gone because trust me, it is never gone 100%. Not in this world. Not in a world with people always trying to test your boundaries, always trying to get a reaction from you.
Healing is never really finished, but there is so much beauty in the journey when there is a connection with the universe. I do not know the answers to many things, all I know is the experiences that happened to me. Through the chaos, through surrender, through faith.
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